Im a bit of a dreamer with a skeptical side. I tend to picture things a certian way, and I have trouble if it deviates. I think I have only truly began to understand what kind of effort life takes in the past year. For the first time ever I live alone. (divorced) Maybe that has something to do with it. Lots of time to think and ponder. I've begun to travel which I never did before and that has changed my entire perspective on life and whats important. One thing I have come to understand about myself is that I look totally different than I am. Maybe I should work on that? Its hard for me to explain but its almost like to look at me you picture me one way but to know me you'll see im not like that at all. AND something about the way I look makes me attract super young guys and people in transition. Does that make sense? I believe I am at my best when I am single but Im not afraid to admit Im lonely. I love singing in my car and taking baths (even though girls aren't suppose to take baths blah, blah, blah) I think I have a very "male" take on things. I don't like details or sappy cheesy people. Girls bug me...sometimes I can't even go to bars because of some of the stupid things they do. I get embarrassed for them. Kind of how you do when someone on American Idol sings really badly. Im odd and strange For example. Pidgeons crack me up! The faster they walk the harder I laugh. Have you ever watched them, those guys are funny! A friend once told me that they have to walk like that or their necks would break. Is that true?

I know exactly what Im after the problem is I think I may be asking for too much. I don't like apologies so I tend to give up on people/relationships quickly. Im sure Ive lost out on a lot because of that but I like thinks to come naturally. I don't like guys that have to be "on" all the time or that make me feel like I have to be "on" either. I am really idealistic when it comes to men, but I'd rather be alone then settle. So here's the application: I have to be attracted to a guy. (Shallow but true.) One a ten point scale I want someone who isn't below a 6 but not above and 8 (please read that line twice). Only recently have I accepted that I DO have a type. Ideally blonde. Blondes sort of "twinkle" when they enter a room. Blue eyes, dimpes are a plus, taller but not TALL....like 5'8" - 6'1"ish? NO MUSCLEHEADS-No guys who have photos of their bumpy torsos. If you're wearing bling or a cocked hat....please pass go. BRITISH would be ideal, they have a wittiness about them that keeps me on my toes Funny NOT cheesy is so important I love a goof ball. I want creative but not is an artistic way...I have my reasons. I mean creative in a romance kind of way. I want someone that likes to cause a scene. Yeah all the girly stuff like bringing home balloons instead of flowers and for no reason, a guy that isn't to shy to let everyone know he's into me...SUBTLY! I want a guy that softens up in the face when I enter a room, but is strong otherwise. I would like one smarter than me...to learn from. I want a social guy yet I want quiet nights at home, with no TV on and wine, lost in conversation. Someone that pays attention to the details of me. I love suprises! I've never had anyone actually do it without me catching on so someone more clever than I am would be fun. I want someone that brings out the dork in me. Subtle sexy( can't stress that enough). NOT cheesy. I need a moderate level of arrogence to counter mine. Ideal relationship... addicted to one another in an inside joke kind of way. Oh and above all else...no matter how this makes me look to you....I need a guy with his shit together! Emotionally and professionally