Emotions Gone buckwild!!
I don't know how a person that says he cares about you can totally mistreat you and still continue to claim that he cares... I promised myself that I would not allow myself to be hurt by another guy yet its happened once again. Crazyiest thing is that although I didn't love you, you still ended up breaking my heart.... didn't think that was possible. All I wanted was for someone to care about me for once... however that appears to be to much. Tonight of all nights it hurts. This is when I need you the most. All I want is to be held by you on this bitter cold night and told that its going to be ok, that I will be fine and I will get through this. But I just can't count on you for that. I have just got to stop caring b/c apparently caring doesn't get you anywhere but hurt twice as worse as the last time...... all i wanted was for you to care... How do i stop the hurting and the pain and just forget about you? I wish I could just wake up tomorrow and you would be gone, never have existed, never have hurt. Last night as I cried myself to sleep, I prayed, hoped and wised that when I woke up today you would no longer exist in my life, but when I awoke the pain and the hurt was just as strong as it was last night.... please just make it stop.. i can't take the hurt anymore...
